It's how I feel!

Feeling very hurt!  I always try to do my best, work hard and support others in their own journeys and difficulties.  I don't do it for praise and thanks, but for the benefit of the person and the kingdom, but to sit and listen to someone say their thank you to everyone else who has helped them and be left out of the list hurts!

Feeling so low at the moment with so much going on, Stuart being made redundant, pressure from family to sort their problems out, demands coming left, right and centre from the stuff needing doing at home and my own health issues isn't helping.

Trying to stay positive, but it's hard.  I feel so undervalued and useless at the moment - can't seem to get anything right even though I'm doing it to the best of my ability and with the right intentions - perhaps I need to think again about whether this role is right for me.  Feeling so far removed from God, I know he's there, and am trying my hardest to reach out to him but not getting there at the moment.  I know he has plans for me (and us) but this test is just getting me down!

I know I will come out of it, I know God will sustain me and equip me, I stay faithful as God is faithful to me, but just feeling an invisible fraud at the moment.